Post Wedding

To my wonderful friends,

There are so many things that I want to say to each and every one of you, but I honestly don't even know where to start and if I were to wait for the right time to do it, it'll probably take a while. So I guess just a short message is better than nothing, and with our telepathic abilities I hope you know how big those words actually mean and perhaps you can read between the lines and understand that my true gratitude to you cannot be measured by words.

Firstly, I feel a little scared being the first person among us to take this step forward. No role model, no one to ask for advice, and as the girls have witnessed, we're all a little clueless about certain things :) We have known each other since we were young innocent children, and most of you had been with me through most of my life changing chapters, and had seen me evolved from little girl me to this woman I've turned out to be. So it is only true when I say apart from my family, you are the one who made this journey partly easier, partly harder, but mainly the most meaningful.

Thank you for all your love and support - without which I may not have been this strong, and thank you for all the beautiful memories - I've only just truly realized what I have been missing all these while when I was away, but thank you for making time despite your busy schedule to spend it on this friendship. Thank you for all the smiles and laughter, and thank you for the tears. Only God knows how much this friendship means to me and how much I love you.

To the next one in line, trust me, with a set of friends like this, it isn't as scary as you thought it'd be.

So take the leap and join me :)

Hugs and kisses and lots of love,

Lene

it's end of november already

how time flies very fast.

congratulations again to Lene, for you are now a level higher than us. From now on, whenever we want to say your name, we have to address you as Puan Lene :)

here's to a wonderful journey both Kuchai and you are embarking. it's not gonna be bed of roses along the way (i think you already know that :p), but am sure it's gonna be a journey full of love and joy. and yeah, we might sometimes feel like tagging along in some parts of your journey. hopefully it wont be a problem to you both? :p

end of 2009 is looming fast, and 2010 is going to say hello sooner.

year-end road trip anyone? i'm thinking of driving somewhere from 29th onwards to 1st Jan 2010 :)

Reflection

it's august already. i'm sure by now, we have gone through a lot in our lives.

somebody just started working. (all the best Hafiz!)

somebody just came back to home sweet home, amid the current political craziness situation. (Doc Yeen, welcome back!)

somebody can't stop herself from counting the days, and attending classes. (Doc Lene, omg omg omg omg omg omg)

somebody went back to a place where she was before, in hope to fulfill her dreams. (Bai, u do know that you're always in our mind kan?)

somebody is about to reach a new milestone in their professional path. (Syeena, nak dekat setahun dah since i called you to forego your plan during UMNO assembly. And Nordi, nak dekat setahun jugak since u followed my footsteps, of leaving a mark in UOB!)

and another year of achievements for them. (i'm sure u both are doing great, professionally and in personal life. maintain tau Alia and Lan)

here's to August, and the remaining 4 months for us to reflect what we have achieved so far in 2009, and what 2010 might have in store for us all.

and yelah.. happy birthday to those who were born before August, in August and after August.

Whiling away the timi lalolalolalo waiting for the grammar police

hmm.....

this weekend a friend of ours is gonna get married. truth be told i cant wait. why? you asked...

Its because on that day you can spend your time with your frens.... being wild and free (at least its true for me)

By the way, Lene i can't wait for your wedding. Rest assure i akan jadi orang kuat. *flexing Muscles*

The Sisterhood

I was watching The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 last night and kinda let myself get emo. I'm glad i watched it alone. It's such a typical girly friends movie. Nevertheless, these kinda movies always gets to me, and watching it made me appreciate my friends evenmore. Especially after a great weekend. It was actually filled with sleepiness, indecisiveness and lotsa failed attempts to get things done. It has been awhile since all the girls actually stayed for hours in a house. My favourite part was actually at the end after cleaning up the mess, all of us literally lay flat on the floor, taking breaths before moving to Lan's bbq. Everyone was so light as if we were on something. It was a good weekend of just being together.

In times like these, I'm glad i could count on my girlfriends to do things at the very last minute. It turned out pretty good too. Imagine if those things weren't there, it would be so bland! So yeah, thank you for doing this at the very last minute. Sorry if u know, among other things, i kinda made noise when some of you watched that tattoo show on astro and your hands are not doing work! or maybe doing it with half of the effiency. What I'm trying to say is that i know we can drive each other crazy at times but thank God in the end, we all forget about those little little things. 

I think we've shared a fair bit in growing up. Went through the immature primary school bitching phase, seen each other fall in and out of love, failed exams and graduate from uni, and hopefully will see more of each other finding soulmates and getting babies. 

Here's to my girlfriends.

Looking forward to growing old with you and may we still have a cuppa together at the age of 60.

Cheers!

till we meet again

you guys are the best.
period.

Dreams

Have any of you had dreams that you really wake up to and somewhat believe it.....

I had so many dreams this week (most often than not I do not have dreams). Some of them were ridiculous and some even hilarious but there was this oneparticular dream that woke me up startled. You see, in this dream, there was this incident where I think it's really related to something I am facing in my life at present. I know it is common that ppl say dreams are signs, but in my case, if that is true, it is really sad for me for that 'incident' to happen.

dreams... believe it or not i think it is good. sometimes it's meant to give us this sign and we have to trust our judgement to decipher it the best we can.

Makes life more interesting doesn't it?

place your bets

so, Lene will tie the knot soon.
the question is, who's next?

ladies and gentlemen, you may place your bets here.

:)

short breaks

Hello loved ones,
I'm so very happy to announce I have booked my flight home. I will reach KL on the 20th of October, and as usual I only have a net of nine days to spend. Yes. Nine.

I was excited at first when I was told the booking has been confirmed, but as I was walking home in the rain I started thinking - is that all I'm ever going to get? Only nine or ten days each time I go home? It is a sad thought, and I feel like I'm drifting away more and more as the years go by.

It is such a dread, adulthood.
Don't you think so?

I've told my colleagues again and again - I don't want to continue working in the hospital. I'm gonna settle to be a housewife, or maybe open my own practice at the very best. I don't care if it's a waste of five years of struggling in medical school, or if some people think it's a waste of wisdom or knowledge. I just don't have the energy or will to put my patients' needs before mine. I hope it's not as selfish as it sounds.

To my working friends, hats off to you for having such strong willpower to wake up every morning and doing the same routine every day.
Maybe it sounds silly, but I think we need to praise ourselves once in a while.
I'm proud of you :)

think you can beat this?

this was like years ago. but now, i already mastered how to finish a bottle of mineral water in less than a minute.
hahahahaa

where art thou, angels?

Birthday Shout-Out

well, it's 2008 already.

and we are reaching the end of January already.

and for that, this entry shall be a special one.

a special post to two of my brothers.

happy 24th Birthday, peeps.

p/s: dun worry.. adik aku tak bangun dah malam2 hahahaha..

Shine On You Crazy Diamond

Dear friends,

With Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond playing in the background as i write this entry, there's no other feeling that i could pick out other than, I miss my ablyns. Ridiculous, i know. It's not like I'm in Ukraine or Cork or Aussie for that matter. Though i think i did tell Amil once to pretend like I'm in Australia. I haven't seen you guys in ages. I don't know how or why, but i guess it's the way the world works. Everybody has their own lives, work, friends and family. Not forgetting, problems. And somehow, i think ablyns understands this and we give space. And for that, I thank you and I love you. Now i just wanna say, I miss you guys so much. And if we do meet up anytime soon, I have a tale to tell.

Meanwhile, a random photo online triggered my memory of a photo i took sometime ago. And i rummaged through my piles of ablyns cd for it. Yes, I'm that sort of person who would go through old stuff just to live it back again. In the process of doing that, a whole lot of memory waved through. I realized i miss the small little stuff that we do together. Eating at mamaks every other day and still take photos like we'll never see each other again. Pictures of food, every dish, every drink. I miss. All triggered only by a photo i was looking for.

This photo.

It's actually the cheating-boyfriend-with-the-bestfriend photo. Thank you for being my models. :)
And asal i rase Hafiz hot?

Here's another photo. This was when Amil decided to treat us sate with his internship allowance. And Syeena and Hafiz, inseparable. Bile syeena & Hafiz bersatu, dunia menjadi biru.

Now who can ever forget this one.. Rasta rappers. I remember we were on the way to Rasta from Assunta Hospital, after visiting a dengue-d Syeena. We had Limp Bizkit on full blast and we're singing on top of our lungs to it. No wonder we hit it good with Rollin' during our karaoke session. We had lotsa practice already.

Aww cuties. I can't remember when this was. But it's just cute! my best bet is at Dunkin Donuts. When the hell did we go to Dunkin Donuts?

Haha i love this photo. So cheeky. We went to Jasima for a drink, and i told Syeena specifically not to park under the trees because there's gonna be lotsa bird shit on her car later on. she casually replied, takpe burung tido malam. When we came back, hell yeah the car was covered with shit alright. And the funniest thing was, we were joking around saying, kalau terpasang wipers ni, gile spread semua taik! Nordi was driving, i think and she wanted to turn the signal on. Guess what she turned on instead? The wipers!! I never laughed so hard in my life that night. So when we reached my place, Hafiz was pushed to hose down the droppings. Yes, while the girls posed for pictures.

Oh, another photo from the same night as Rasta rappers. I miss the times when we all would lepak for a bit outside my house. As uncomfortable as it is dengan nyamuk and bunyi air tepi longkang yg bagaikan air terjun itu, i think we did spend quite some time there. Tengoklah dalam gambar tu, Lan with his humongous phone, nordi with her old camera, and amil too with one of his old phones. Yes you change your phone alot of times, mil.

And how could we ever miss taking photos in the car? I think this was on the way back home from Starbucks Mont Kiara. If anyone ever remembered Lan's Ole ole ole ole ole ole, the nonstop and annoying ole (which can be heard on The Angels cd before Blurry song), it is during this time. I think it's high time we return to Mont Kiara for a drink. That's where all the talks begin.

That's all for now. To all of you, especially for those of u who's a sucker like me for acoustic guitar sounds, it's a good time to listen to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Because,

You guys are My Guardian Angels.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

And I....

Thank God I've at least felt this feeling. <3

Stolen Moments

Dear Friends,
I can't believe I am back in Cork... When I try to recall the things that I've done for the past 3 months, I feel like I've done much, yet there were still so many things that I never did, or rather never did enough.

One of it is definitely spending time with all of you.

I know I met some of you only several times, and for that I am sorry. I know everyone has been busy, we've all started to live our lives now, it's a beginning for many, yet sometimes it also feels like an ending. Although all we've had are stolen moments every now and then, they are all very important to me and I hold those moments close to my heart.

To those that I've had the chance to talk to, pour my soul to, be it for 50 minutes or just 5 minutes, I am grateful for the chance, I am grateful for having such understanding friends. Sometimes the weird thing is, although we may find ourselves to be very different from each other, although we hardly talk over the year, I think that in many ways we are very similar to each other. I can't explain it, it is just something that I had noticed, and I find it very comforting. Sometimes you think that no one can understand you or accept you for who you are, but don't for one second think that way, because in truth, all of us have made each other the person we have become, we are not that different after all, at least in one way or another.

I am not over-rating our friendship. I just think that for me, for a person as reserved as me, all of you are the only true friends I've ever known, and the best that one can ever wish for - you are the gems in my heart.

we're here

.A.B.L.Y.N.S .A.H.A.

everyone is back home

and i can't wait to meet them

and i love them all

edited 24/8/2007

A leSSon Learned

Today i had a job interview which i find a bit unusual
unusual in the sense that i always do a lot of talkin but today....
as i sat there in front of the interviewers they were the ones who taught me
a thing or 2 bout life.
The most important thing that i remember from the interview was...
in life if you can let go of two thinz, you will be able to overcome almost any obstacles

Ego & Appreciation

PS: a word of advice for this two...

Ego - the lower you bend (bet dun think bout ida kay), the higher the respect you gain

Appreciation - Evrytime sumbody does sumthin for you just thank them so that you dun owe them anythin. However if you help sumbody and they dun thank you then they owe you sumthin

EXERCISE AND BE FIT

Have a balanced lifestyle. Exercise regularly.

F : Frequency : 3 to 5 times a week.
I : Intensity : Exercise till we sweat and breath deeply.
T : Types of exercises : Find one that suits our age, lifestyle…

PS: so lets go and play futsal frens... jomla....

L.O.V.E

ooo boys with L.O.V.E

I think i gile tgh emo skrg.
I think i L.O.V.E you guys alot!

ooo girls with L.O.V.E

The dinner at Sg Buluh was the best. It's been awhile since we had makan besar.

As usual.. banyak sgt gamba. But here's only a few of em.. Mcm tak larat je nak letak banyak2.

Eh korg. I tgh emo ni. Mcm nak nangis!

I think i tak larat nak tulis ape2. Just wanted to put these pictures up so that one day I'll come across this page again, and I'll remember. And I'll remember how I'm feeling now.

Sayang korg siot.

June oh June

i found myself counting the days to June. why? coz Lene and Yeen are coming back home! (altho for a short period of time).

some of us went AWOL and MIA throughout April and May. can't blame them. sometimes life dictates that friends are the one that you can put aside for a while, thus providing you the ability to focus more on the work/study. and good friends, when they are put aside, they neither just sit there doing nothing, nor feeling as if they are no longer an integral part in the other's life. good friends understand, and give them space as well as supports. (and not forgetting, some beautifully worded "reminder")

cepatlah balik. tak sabar nak spend holidays with you all.