Shine On You Crazy Diamond

Dear friends,

With Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond playing in the background as i write this entry, there's no other feeling that i could pick out other than, I miss my ablyns. Ridiculous, i know. It's not like I'm in Ukraine or Cork or Aussie for that matter. Though i think i did tell Amil once to pretend like I'm in Australia. I haven't seen you guys in ages. I don't know how or why, but i guess it's the way the world works. Everybody has their own lives, work, friends and family. Not forgetting, problems. And somehow, i think ablyns understands this and we give space. And for that, I thank you and I love you. Now i just wanna say, I miss you guys so much. And if we do meet up anytime soon, I have a tale to tell.

Meanwhile, a random photo online triggered my memory of a photo i took sometime ago. And i rummaged through my piles of ablyns cd for it. Yes, I'm that sort of person who would go through old stuff just to live it back again. In the process of doing that, a whole lot of memory waved through. I realized i miss the small little stuff that we do together. Eating at mamaks every other day and still take photos like we'll never see each other again. Pictures of food, every dish, every drink. I miss. All triggered only by a photo i was looking for.

This photo.

It's actually the cheating-boyfriend-with-the-bestfriend photo. Thank you for being my models. :)
And asal i rase Hafiz hot?

Here's another photo. This was when Amil decided to treat us sate with his internship allowance. And Syeena and Hafiz, inseparable. Bile syeena & Hafiz bersatu, dunia menjadi biru.

Now who can ever forget this one.. Rasta rappers. I remember we were on the way to Rasta from Assunta Hospital, after visiting a dengue-d Syeena. We had Limp Bizkit on full blast and we're singing on top of our lungs to it. No wonder we hit it good with Rollin' during our karaoke session. We had lotsa practice already.

Aww cuties. I can't remember when this was. But it's just cute! my best bet is at Dunkin Donuts. When the hell did we go to Dunkin Donuts?

Haha i love this photo. So cheeky. We went to Jasima for a drink, and i told Syeena specifically not to park under the trees because there's gonna be lotsa bird shit on her car later on. she casually replied, takpe burung tido malam. When we came back, hell yeah the car was covered with shit alright. And the funniest thing was, we were joking around saying, kalau terpasang wipers ni, gile spread semua taik! Nordi was driving, i think and she wanted to turn the signal on. Guess what she turned on instead? The wipers!! I never laughed so hard in my life that night. So when we reached my place, Hafiz was pushed to hose down the droppings. Yes, while the girls posed for pictures.

Oh, another photo from the same night as Rasta rappers. I miss the times when we all would lepak for a bit outside my house. As uncomfortable as it is dengan nyamuk and bunyi air tepi longkang yg bagaikan air terjun itu, i think we did spend quite some time there. Tengoklah dalam gambar tu, Lan with his humongous phone, nordi with her old camera, and amil too with one of his old phones. Yes you change your phone alot of times, mil.

And how could we ever miss taking photos in the car? I think this was on the way back home from Starbucks Mont Kiara. If anyone ever remembered Lan's Ole ole ole ole ole ole, the nonstop and annoying ole (which can be heard on The Angels cd before Blurry song), it is during this time. I think it's high time we return to Mont Kiara for a drink. That's where all the talks begin.

That's all for now. To all of you, especially for those of u who's a sucker like me for acoustic guitar sounds, it's a good time to listen to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Because,

You guys are My Guardian Angels.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

And I....

Thank God I've at least felt this feeling. <3

Stolen Moments

Dear Friends,
I can't believe I am back in Cork... When I try to recall the things that I've done for the past 3 months, I feel like I've done much, yet there were still so many things that I never did, or rather never did enough.

One of it is definitely spending time with all of you.

I know I met some of you only several times, and for that I am sorry. I know everyone has been busy, we've all started to live our lives now, it's a beginning for many, yet sometimes it also feels like an ending. Although all we've had are stolen moments every now and then, they are all very important to me and I hold those moments close to my heart.

To those that I've had the chance to talk to, pour my soul to, be it for 50 minutes or just 5 minutes, I am grateful for the chance, I am grateful for having such understanding friends. Sometimes the weird thing is, although we may find ourselves to be very different from each other, although we hardly talk over the year, I think that in many ways we are very similar to each other. I can't explain it, it is just something that I had noticed, and I find it very comforting. Sometimes you think that no one can understand you or accept you for who you are, but don't for one second think that way, because in truth, all of us have made each other the person we have become, we are not that different after all, at least in one way or another.

I am not over-rating our friendship. I just think that for me, for a person as reserved as me, all of you are the only true friends I've ever known, and the best that one can ever wish for - you are the gems in my heart.