short breaks

Hello loved ones,
I'm so very happy to announce I have booked my flight home. I will reach KL on the 20th of October, and as usual I only have a net of nine days to spend. Yes. Nine.

I was excited at first when I was told the booking has been confirmed, but as I was walking home in the rain I started thinking - is that all I'm ever going to get? Only nine or ten days each time I go home? It is a sad thought, and I feel like I'm drifting away more and more as the years go by.

It is such a dread, adulthood.
Don't you think so?

I've told my colleagues again and again - I don't want to continue working in the hospital. I'm gonna settle to be a housewife, or maybe open my own practice at the very best. I don't care if it's a waste of five years of struggling in medical school, or if some people think it's a waste of wisdom or knowledge. I just don't have the energy or will to put my patients' needs before mine. I hope it's not as selfish as it sounds.

To my working friends, hats off to you for having such strong willpower to wake up every morning and doing the same routine every day.
Maybe it sounds silly, but I think we need to praise ourselves once in a while.
I'm proud of you :)

think you can beat this?

this was like years ago. but now, i already mastered how to finish a bottle of mineral water in less than a minute.
hahahahaa

where art thou, angels?

Birthday Shout-Out

well, it's 2008 already.

and we are reaching the end of January already.

and for that, this entry shall be a special one.

a special post to two of my brothers.

happy 24th Birthday, peeps.

p/s: dun worry.. adik aku tak bangun dah malam2 hahahaha..

Shine On You Crazy Diamond

Dear friends,

With Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond playing in the background as i write this entry, there's no other feeling that i could pick out other than, I miss my ablyns. Ridiculous, i know. It's not like I'm in Ukraine or Cork or Aussie for that matter. Though i think i did tell Amil once to pretend like I'm in Australia. I haven't seen you guys in ages. I don't know how or why, but i guess it's the way the world works. Everybody has their own lives, work, friends and family. Not forgetting, problems. And somehow, i think ablyns understands this and we give space. And for that, I thank you and I love you. Now i just wanna say, I miss you guys so much. And if we do meet up anytime soon, I have a tale to tell.

Meanwhile, a random photo online triggered my memory of a photo i took sometime ago. And i rummaged through my piles of ablyns cd for it. Yes, I'm that sort of person who would go through old stuff just to live it back again. In the process of doing that, a whole lot of memory waved through. I realized i miss the small little stuff that we do together. Eating at mamaks every other day and still take photos like we'll never see each other again. Pictures of food, every dish, every drink. I miss. All triggered only by a photo i was looking for.

This photo.

It's actually the cheating-boyfriend-with-the-bestfriend photo. Thank you for being my models. :)
And asal i rase Hafiz hot?

Here's another photo. This was when Amil decided to treat us sate with his internship allowance. And Syeena and Hafiz, inseparable. Bile syeena & Hafiz bersatu, dunia menjadi biru.

Now who can ever forget this one.. Rasta rappers. I remember we were on the way to Rasta from Assunta Hospital, after visiting a dengue-d Syeena. We had Limp Bizkit on full blast and we're singing on top of our lungs to it. No wonder we hit it good with Rollin' during our karaoke session. We had lotsa practice already.

Aww cuties. I can't remember when this was. But it's just cute! my best bet is at Dunkin Donuts. When the hell did we go to Dunkin Donuts?

Haha i love this photo. So cheeky. We went to Jasima for a drink, and i told Syeena specifically not to park under the trees because there's gonna be lotsa bird shit on her car later on. she casually replied, takpe burung tido malam. When we came back, hell yeah the car was covered with shit alright. And the funniest thing was, we were joking around saying, kalau terpasang wipers ni, gile spread semua taik! Nordi was driving, i think and she wanted to turn the signal on. Guess what she turned on instead? The wipers!! I never laughed so hard in my life that night. So when we reached my place, Hafiz was pushed to hose down the droppings. Yes, while the girls posed for pictures.

Oh, another photo from the same night as Rasta rappers. I miss the times when we all would lepak for a bit outside my house. As uncomfortable as it is dengan nyamuk and bunyi air tepi longkang yg bagaikan air terjun itu, i think we did spend quite some time there. Tengoklah dalam gambar tu, Lan with his humongous phone, nordi with her old camera, and amil too with one of his old phones. Yes you change your phone alot of times, mil.

And how could we ever miss taking photos in the car? I think this was on the way back home from Starbucks Mont Kiara. If anyone ever remembered Lan's Ole ole ole ole ole ole, the nonstop and annoying ole (which can be heard on The Angels cd before Blurry song), it is during this time. I think it's high time we return to Mont Kiara for a drink. That's where all the talks begin.

That's all for now. To all of you, especially for those of u who's a sucker like me for acoustic guitar sounds, it's a good time to listen to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Because,

You guys are My Guardian Angels.

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

And I....

Thank God I've at least felt this feeling. <3

Stolen Moments

Dear Friends,
I can't believe I am back in Cork... When I try to recall the things that I've done for the past 3 months, I feel like I've done much, yet there were still so many things that I never did, or rather never did enough.

One of it is definitely spending time with all of you.

I know I met some of you only several times, and for that I am sorry. I know everyone has been busy, we've all started to live our lives now, it's a beginning for many, yet sometimes it also feels like an ending. Although all we've had are stolen moments every now and then, they are all very important to me and I hold those moments close to my heart.

To those that I've had the chance to talk to, pour my soul to, be it for 50 minutes or just 5 minutes, I am grateful for the chance, I am grateful for having such understanding friends. Sometimes the weird thing is, although we may find ourselves to be very different from each other, although we hardly talk over the year, I think that in many ways we are very similar to each other. I can't explain it, it is just something that I had noticed, and I find it very comforting. Sometimes you think that no one can understand you or accept you for who you are, but don't for one second think that way, because in truth, all of us have made each other the person we have become, we are not that different after all, at least in one way or another.

I am not over-rating our friendship. I just think that for me, for a person as reserved as me, all of you are the only true friends I've ever known, and the best that one can ever wish for - you are the gems in my heart.

we're here

.A.B.L.Y.N.S .A.H.A.

everyone is back home

and i can't wait to meet them

and i love them all

edited 24/8/2007

A leSSon Learned

Today i had a job interview which i find a bit unusual
unusual in the sense that i always do a lot of talkin but today....
as i sat there in front of the interviewers they were the ones who taught me
a thing or 2 bout life.
The most important thing that i remember from the interview was...
in life if you can let go of two thinz, you will be able to overcome almost any obstacles

Ego & Appreciation

PS: a word of advice for this two...

Ego - the lower you bend (bet dun think bout ida kay), the higher the respect you gain

Appreciation - Evrytime sumbody does sumthin for you just thank them so that you dun owe them anythin. However if you help sumbody and they dun thank you then they owe you sumthin

EXERCISE AND BE FIT

Have a balanced lifestyle. Exercise regularly.

F : Frequency : 3 to 5 times a week.
I : Intensity : Exercise till we sweat and breath deeply.
T : Types of exercises : Find one that suits our age, lifestyle…

PS: so lets go and play futsal frens... jomla....

L.O.V.E

ooo boys with L.O.V.E

I think i gile tgh emo skrg.
I think i L.O.V.E you guys alot!

ooo girls with L.O.V.E

The dinner at Sg Buluh was the best. It's been awhile since we had makan besar.

As usual.. banyak sgt gamba. But here's only a few of em.. Mcm tak larat je nak letak banyak2.

Eh korg. I tgh emo ni. Mcm nak nangis!

I think i tak larat nak tulis ape2. Just wanted to put these pictures up so that one day I'll come across this page again, and I'll remember. And I'll remember how I'm feeling now.

Sayang korg siot.

June oh June

i found myself counting the days to June. why? coz Lene and Yeen are coming back home! (altho for a short period of time).

some of us went AWOL and MIA throughout April and May. can't blame them. sometimes life dictates that friends are the one that you can put aside for a while, thus providing you the ability to focus more on the work/study. and good friends, when they are put aside, they neither just sit there doing nothing, nor feeling as if they are no longer an integral part in the other's life. good friends understand, and give them space as well as supports. (and not forgetting, some beautifully worded "reminder")

cepatlah balik. tak sabar nak spend holidays with you all.

5 things in life

it was about 3 months ago, when alia came up with this question. or maybe a riddle. or was it a quiz?

anyway, she purposely told us to re-arrange these 5 things from Most Important to Least Important, based on your current views of life. the 5 magical things are (not in order) :

• Wealth
• Love
• Family
• Friends
• Health

so, care to share your 5s??

note: the 5 things have been corrected.

Oooo girls

ABLYNS

I thought I might just start this out.
For fun.
So that when you're old and grey, you can show your grandchildren the kind of friends who've always got your back no matter what throughout your living years..

:)

I don't know why but I seem to like to create blogs. For no reason. Not that I update any of it much. So while I'm at it, I figured why not make us one? And yeah. Feel free to drop and entry or thoughts, or pictures, whatever. You know, when u got those nostalgic moments wandering across your mind suddenly.. (kalau dah terbrowse cd tuu...)

Me, I just love the photos.